Sometimes

Sometimes, I wish that my ex had never moved back in. I mean, I do like having the extra money. I REALLY like having the extra money. But, now that my daughter has moved out, I kinda would like to know what it is like to live all alone, and to answer to only myself. Now, the ex and I still have a strictly platonic relationship, but still, after living together as man and wife, the dynamics of our relationship are a little bit different than ordinary room mates. It is hard to explain. I guess it is just companionship multiplied to the 2nd or something. I am starting to really find out who I am, and I would like to see myself without him in the picture. Unfortunately, it is not going to happen right now. Unless, he meets someone, or I meet someone, we are just going to continue living together, because I need the cash and he needs the cheap rent. It isn't that bad. I just know that someday, I am going to have to try it on my own.

My friend and I are still jogging. We went 3 times last week, and plan to do the same this week. I already feel better. I am looking forward to going again tonight. I hope she keeps it up. I love to run, and I love having a running partner.

I wonder if my libido will come back after I lose a few pounds. I finally got around to pleasuring myself again last night. It was nice. I need to do that again. One day, though, I hope to have the real thing, but for now, this will have to suffice.