Waiting

I am waiting patiently to hear from school about my admission to the program. Waiting, waiting, waiting. We are always waiting. I am kind of a "right now!" person. I hate to wait. Oh, I was sooo impatient when I was younger. I am still impatient, I just have to stuff it down, and sometimes I just want to scream! However, on the outside, no one would ever know.

My daughter just started taking birth control again. She has a new boyfriend. (Hey. She is almost 20, so what can I say?). I am very glad that she is taking control of her body. I am relieved, especially since the ex is going to be a grandpa. I'm not ready. I would deal with it - just like my parents did, but I am not ready. She also received the maximum amount of financial aid for next school year as well. Woo hoo!
I just have to keep praying that she makes the right decisions. There is still time for things to go very wrong, because my daughter is, afterall, human.

I have slept with my CPAP machine for the past two nights in a row - ALL NIGHT! Now, that is an accomplishment to be proud of. I feel good.

My friend and I are still running. Twice this week so far, and we are going again tomorrow. I can already tell that I am losing weight around my belly. I just want to look good...for myself. I am tired of avoiding places and friends because I feel fat, or because I am afraid they will ask me if I am pregnant. Women have to worry about those things, ya know. It hasn't happened yet, but I expect it too if I dont keep exercising.

Oh. Oh...and my libido is coming back full force. I am keeping my vibrator in my bed at all times now, just in case of emergency.