Well, I guess the title of this entry is misleading. I don't mean fear in the sense of everyday fear, or jumping from an airplane fear, or just plain fear of dying, etc. I mean fear as in fear of failure.
I am starting to figure out why I can leave things in limbo - unfinished. Everything left unfinished has promise. Anything completed, well... is over, and once it is over, you get your grade, you get to find out exactly what you are made of. I am not sure I want to know what I am made of. I am afraid of what I might find out.
I have put off school for so long that now that I feel failure is no longer an option. I HAVE to perform! I have no choice.
Now, I am scared...for real.
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