Wide Load

I just got my paycheck, and it sucked! But the good new is, after looking at what I made this year, I won't be losing my financial aid for school any time soon! Woo hoo!

I need to force myself to work a few more hours than I have been. I have been really taking advantage of my flexible schedule, and this is not a good thing. I think I am going to come in for a few hours on Saturday to punish myself. Oh yes, I like to be punished...even if I have to do it myself.

So, I have a new haircut, and my daughter colored my hair. It has actually been a couple of weeks since I had it done. I love it. I have been styling my hair every single day, which is waaaay out of character for me. My hair just looks so nice after being blown dry . It looks thicker and healthier. I am really going to start taking better care of myself in the new year. Yes. I am. Really. I am going to take care of me. No kidding. Really. Yes.

Next thing on my agenda this week is getting a pedicure, and I am STILL planning on skating down the Silver Comet Trail. Please! Encourage me. I need all the encouragement I can get when it comes to exercise these days. I can hardly make myself get up off the couch. That isn't me. I don't know who has taken over my body, but I want it back!

Counseling was a bit hard yesterday. I don't want to talk a lot about it, but I do want to say that I need to find a way to seperate from the girls that I counsel after they walk out the door. I find myself obsessing over their situations, and I just can't do that to myself. It isn't productive. Last night I finally had to pray out loud about one of the girls. I had to let the words pass thru my lips and out into the air. Otherwise, I felt that my prayer might not be heard. I don't know how to explain it, but it did help. I need to find a constructive way to deal with the load I have chosen to carry.