Not Much

I have had the urge to cut my hair lately, but I am going to keep on keepin on. I must remain steadfast in my commitment. Especially, since I am jogging again and I am starting to notice some weight loss. I can't remember having long hair, and being skinny at the same time. Every time I start getting into shape, I get the urge to cut my hair again.

I have another mammogram on Thursday. No big deal. Just a re-check. I am not too worried about it. I am more anxious about going back to my primary care doctor and getting my thyroid tested again. I am still torn between hoping that I am finally going to find a cure to my fatigue and sluggishness, and finding out that I have to take yet another pill every day to keep my fat ass healthy. I am hoping that the jogging is going to have a significant effect on my triglyceride levels. One thing that pisses me off, is that I do not eat alot. I don't sit around snacking. It is rare for me to buy junk food, and I drink water all day long. Some of my friends have made comments about my not eating as much as they expected for me to have gained so much weight over the past few years. I'm not really sure what the deal is. I watch television and it always says, cut out sodas and junk food...blah blah blah...drink more water. Every time I hear that most overweight people have a "stash" of junk food, or drink most of their calories, I get so pissed. I don't do those things. Arrrgh! The only way for me to truly lose weight (and I know I have said this before), is to run 4 miles a day - every day. I guess that is why I am picking up jogging again. I know that it will help some, but it wont entirely take care of my weight. Last time I was running 4 miles a day, sometimes more, I lost weight, but I was not even close to being my ideal weight. I would have had to cut my food intake in half, and then I wouldn't have the energy to run. Whatever.

Other than that, I am feeling really good about myself. I feel I am moving toward the person that I want to be. I am in a good place mentally.

I know my blog has been pretty boring as of late. The only thing on my mind anymore is getting ahead in school, getting healthy, and trying to get proper sleep. Basic things. 2 more years of school seems like an awful long time right now. I am really trying to get that out of my head.

My ex's son got his girlfriend pregnant, so it looks like he is going to be a grandpa. I am secretly excited about the prospect. I love his son, and therefore, I will be loving on a grand baby. Since, I decided not to have anymore children after my daughter was born, I think this will fill a special place in my heart until my own daughter has her children YEARS from now.