Migraine

Another day waking up with a fucking migraine. It gets old. I thought I was going to have to leave work early, but I took some medication that might be working, so here I am. I never know what is going to work. Should I eat chocolate? Should I not eat chocolate? Should I drink caffeine, should I not? Should I take enough medication to kill a horse, or will a Goody Powder and a coke do the trick. You would think I would have this all figured out by now, since I have had migraines since around age 4! But, I don't, and probably never will. I try to remind myself about the people I know who are in pain every second of every day. That tends to keep me from feeling sorry for myself.

Actually, as I sit here, I am noticing that my migraine is completely gone. What a beautiful thing. Now, I need a nap.

I guess I should make an amendment to the blog yesterday about how I am no longer sexually attracted to men, and that all of them make me wanna gag (haha...what's wrong with a little gagging among friends?). Anywho, I guess it is really more or less looking around at strangers. Men that I might have found attractive in the past. I am not impressed by their manliness, or their handsomeness. I find myself thinking about what they REALLY think about their significant others. Are they cheaters or liars, or just plain losers, or even abusers (emotional or otherwise).
So, I am just plain uninterested in getting to know any new males, for friendship or otherwise. It could be fear, it could be that I am just apathetic toward to male species in general, or it could be that men aren't really interested in my fat ass, and this is my way of coping with rejection.

Today would have been my 4 year anniversary. I'm not even sad about it.