I kinda feel stressed. I definitely think I have bitten off more than I can chew. I am going to continue through with the volunteering, because - remember I am working on "commitment". And this is a commitment that I have made to myself, because it is something that I have always wanted to do. I am going to follow through with it entirely. I may have to take Thursdays off at work though. I am going to look into it. That way, I won't dread Thursday so much. I don't know. We'll see how it goes this week first.
I feel no attraction to the opposite sex right now. I have sexual feelings, per say, but I do not find men attractive at all. I think I am just bitter right now, and I think if things didnt work out with the ex, then really, things wont work out with any other man. It is so weird. I look at men, even cute men, and I think to myself, "gag!". I apologize to any man reading this right now, but I have just had enough already. I am so glad that my husband no longer lives with me, and does not have ANY control over ANY portion of my life. I am so glad that I dont have to give him blow jobs, or fight him off before bed because I am too tired. Sometimes, I would just offer a blow job, because that is a quick and easy way to get them off your back. But, he didn't deserve my blow jobs, and right now, I can't think of one man that does. They are way too delicious for the average man.
Wow, I wasn't expecting that rant today.
I need a coke, or some popcorn, or both. I got up early this morning and got in to work an hour earlier than usual. Fucking fantastic. I love it. I can either leave early, or get an hour extra on the ol' paycheck.
4 comments:
I am in no way an 'average' man. I don't expect you to find me attractive, now or at any time. I am well worth one of your 'special' blow jobs, but not because of me, but because you might want to. The thing that REALLYY pisses me off is being lumped in to that place where ex is. Well, that and being sick and feeble and being defenseless, where as I was always the strong one...literally and figuratively. But average???
Oh my darling, veiner-schnitzel, you are far from average, and nothing like the ex. I find you to be strong and incredibly sexy, and most of all, very deserving of one "special" blow job.
P.S. I swallow
furiousball - point me in the right direction my good man. can you imagine, "Hi, everyone. My name is *****, and I am a blowaholic."?
Hmmmmmm...but you seem so (please excuse the expression) 'down' on yourself and everyone else, it would be tough gettin' thru' that skin right now. And, really, I'm in no place to offer solace or ANYTHING. Shoot, I can't even compose an e-mail. But then, neither can you, so what does that say about either one of us? Maybe you're just waiting for me to grab you by the hair and...OOOPS! Sorry, wrong blog.
FB, with all due respect, uh-uh, no way. She's a special woman.
Oh, whoops...I mixed that up. *^#%! that, then. I wanna be first in line...I'm just across town, remember?
Hey, nuthin' about that, but do you still have the red car, or is that one of the ones that 'didn't make it'?
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