I feel like crap. Something is wrong. I just know it. I haven't felt good in a while. I must need exercise and vitamin C or something.
I think I talked about "cramping" (as in menstrual) in my first blog in November, but...I never started my period. I was supposed to start October 30th. I am so sick of this. I am always - ALWAYS at least two weeks late and usually more.
I had an abnormal mammogram about 6 weeks ago, and I am going to see a surgeon on December 3rd. I doubt that they will find cancer. I think it is just something they do if they see something weird. I have some sort of calcification in my breast which may or may not signify cancer. These calcifications are usually seen in people over 50 though, which is kind of perplexing. But, it is not unheard of for someone aged 36 to have this show up in a mammogram. I will save my anxiety for AFTER the dr's appt. I am just glad that they are so proactive with women and breast cancer these days.
My glands in my neck feel swollen, I feel tired all the time, and there is something wrong that I just can NOT put my finger on...Maybe, I am just spread a little too thin these days with work, school and volunteering at the pregnancy center.
My ex-husband kissed me on the mouth the other day. Just a peck, but one that he meant for me to think about, because he grabbed me and planted it right on my unsuspecting lips. I felt REALLY weird about it. I am not attracted to him in that way at all right now, so it left me feeling confused. All this is on top of him asking to be my room mate, and him telling me that he still loves me and always will. I thought he just wanted to move in and be friends. We can't be married, we can't be lovers, so why is he confusing the issue now? I need to let him know that I am not interested in anything other than friendship. I surely do not need that complication right now. Being his room mate is one thing (I was that for four years), but being more than friends and being room mates is not on my agenda.
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Rest cures everything. I am very bad about getting rest and believe me being exhausted can lead to you experiencing all kind of weirdness. Sleep, take that vitamin C, a B complex is good for mood too. Go see the doctor too.
That roommate thing, I dunno. I really don't know what to say about that. I know I couldn't handle it, but would only for my kids' sake. (which in effect would ultimately be bad, because we'd both be depressed)
Going waaaaay back to the title of this blog, yes, you are. Maybe it's a guy thing, I dunno...but the waffling thing is tiring. So is the whining, for which I hope you seek medical treatment. The ailments, not the whining...man up, already. Do not ignore signs of obvious illness, unless of course you're being a whiny waaa, of which I don't know, 'cause we don't communicate. But, it is your blog and your e-right, I s'pose...
weiner-schnitzel? I think your comment is mean. Maybe, I am misunderstanding what you wrote. I hope that I am. In any case, you are right this is MY blog, and I write what I want and I write about me...
I'm sorry, again. No, I was NOT calling YOU crap (I guess that's from an e-mail, not here). I think you are an absolute sweetheart and I did not intend to hurt you in any way. Like I said in my e-mail, I think the pain has made me 'edgy'...short, if you will. Again, I'm sorry. I did not intend to get this sort of reaction. I did not expect it. I meant you are crazy, which is the title of this blog, not crap, which is the individual heading of this entry...
Oh...haha! Doh! Okay. I guess the name of my blog is Am I Crazy!!???
Hilarious. Okay. Not so offensive now. I am certainly Crazy.
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