Constructive Criticism

Taking a little break here at work; which is very unusual. Not sure why I have finished my work early, but okay, I am down with that... I still have other things to do, but normally, I don't get to the secondary stuff. What really sucks about work right now (and I have to try hard to find something that sucks about my job, mind you), but anyway, what sucks about my job right now is that we are checking in behind each other's work - finding each other's mistakes, so that they can be promptly corrected. The thing is, I am making more mistakes than anyone!! This is very difficult for me, because in my head - I am perfect. I do not want anyone to burst my little bubble. How dare they show me my mistakes??!! There must be a good reason why I skipped over that name, or didn't cross that "t"... Man, why can't I be perfect? I try so hard not to act irritated at the person that finds my mistakes. Funny, eh? Does everyone feel that way? I hate - hate - hate for someone to point out my mistakes (er. shortcomings). I know that no one means any harm...I know about constructive criticism. I work in the real world, so I know that we have to be a part of a team, and being a part of a team, means helping each other succeed - blah, blah, blah! But, I want to be a baby! I want to pitch a fit and tell everyone to "fuck off" when they show me my mistakes. I feel like they are all smirking at me, rubbing their hands together and plotting to fire me!

Really, I know that no one is plotting against me, and that we are all just doing what we get paid for...But, I checked behind one of my coworkers and her work was absolutely perfect. No mistakes. Wha? My brain must be getting mushy. I have to slow down. I need to make sure that I make no mistakes at all; otherwise, I am going to explode!

I really do like my job, and I love all the people I work with. This is my problem. This is my secret. I try not to show my insecurities. God, help me to learn to deal with constructive criticism.

I think that might be the first time that I have ever admitted to having a problem with criticism...I'll bet my husband already knows.