Explanation of things

I am going to attempt to explain how I am feeling at the moment about my marriage.

My husband still comes over every weekend. He just asked me over the phone what I wanted to do this weekend. He spends the night at least twice a week (no sex involved except for that one time weekend before last). He fixes things around the house...takes the trash out every weekend and moves the trash can to the curb for pick up. He does not pay any bills. He did pay for me to have cable installed, and for me to get my rollerskates. Other than that, he said if I need anything(money) - just ask.

I asked him in an email (the date should be in a previous blog entry - let me look.) oh yes. I asked him on Monday, April 23rd, if he would move back in. I never received a reply to that email. He confirmed that he received it, and said he was surprised, and said he would love to move back in if I were serious - but then he never brought it up again. He is continuing to live at his mother's house. I asked him again in an email the other day - the one that I copied and pasted into my blog, and of course, received some cryptic answer about his job being stressful, and something about myspace...

Meanwhile, he speaks of our future together. Things that we will do when we retire. Things that we will do next weekend, or next month. But, he never mentions moving back into the house with me. Now, I am not the best at speaking my mind, but I have made it clear where I stand. I want him to move back in so that we can figure things out. He seems to be in denial.

I can't figure out if he has changed his mind about moving back in, and still wants the divorce, but is just afraid to tell me. Or, if he wants to move in, but really enjoys not having any bills while living at his mom's house. Either way, I am in the dark, and he needs to let me know what is going on.

Funny, I was okay with him leaving in the beginning. We both agreed, but then he had to come back and fuck it all up with his "I made a mistake"s, and "I love you"s. Now, I get the feeling I am the one that is going to be hurt in the end. I should have never given in and had sex with him that day.

Could this have been his plan all along? Did he see that I was going to really going to move on and be okay without him, so he thought he would really try and fuck with my head , so that he could hurt me??

I don't know how all this stuff works. Is he really being vendictive and mean? Am I being the fool again? Man. I need to take a class in spotting manipulation and greed. I'll bet that I would figure out exactly what is going on then.