Dreams

I'm going to update before my hands get tired. They were tired yesterday, but they are okay right now...I better hurry. I forgot my wrist band...ugh.

The husband is not going to be able to get his things out of my house this weekend. (SURPRISE!) He said he doesnt have the money to rent the truck or the rental space right now. I told him he could wait until he gets paid next weekend. Of course I told him that...I'm nice.
I knew that he would put it off though.

He keeps asking me what I am doing this weekend. I don't understand why. He calls me everyday. I am still perplexed about that. He doesn't want me, but he is desperate to spend time with me...and he keeps asking my opinion on things that I am not obligated to help him with anymore.

Whatever. I'm not really perplexed. I don't even know why I pretend to be. It is as simple as this: He hasn't found anyone else yet. Period. Wow. How complicated.

How can I cut him off without looking like a bitch? I do not love him. I do not want to spend time with him. I do not want to help with his problems. I want him to leave me alone. I want him to get his stuff out of my house. ALL OF IT, so that he has no excuse to "stop by".

I should be honest and let him know I am uncomfortable.

I have discovered music again. It is a novel idea. I want more.

I had a very sexual dream last night. I thought that part of me was dead. Well...I guess not!
I can't get it out of my head. Maybe, my next few entries will include some fantasies. I am in the mood.