Better.

I am trying to type this blog discretely. For some reason, I would hate to get caught updating my blog here. Maybe, it is because I love working here so much. I am sure that I will complain about it at times, but I am so lucky to have ever found this job...and I mean that.

I feel so much better today than I did yesterday. Actually, after I wrote that blog yesterday, I pulled myself up by my boot straps, and started cleaning the house. Somehow, cleaning house always makes me feel better. I still have some cleaning left to do. I think I will do it tonight. I just decided that I wasn't going to be that person anymore. Depressed, and feeling sorry for myself...or not so much feeling sorry for myself as much as feeling like I can't accomplish the things that I want, because I am not good enough somehow. Well, I am over it for now. People get out of life what they put in...and I am going to put in a lot from now on. I have always wondered what it would be like if I pushed myself to meet my potential. I can't wait to find out.

Well, enough of that crap. I ordered my skates, and they should be in sometime this week. I do hope they fit. I am going to try them out this weekend. I hope I don't break something the first time out.

This morning, I started eating better than I have been, and I am going to continue. I just can not go on feeling like crap, because I eat crap...Crap is not good for eating.

Somewhere in the back of my mind, I want to get down to a weight that my husband (or whatever), will find sexy enough to start doing a little naughty role playing again...Like the Master and slave thing. Of course, if things do not work out with my marriage, at least I will look good...