I took out the trash, and I cut the grass, and now I am cleaning house. Tomorrow and the days after, I will go to work, pay my bills, and take care of anything else that comes up. I will rely on myself as I did all the years before my husband came along. I am going to try my best not to ask him for any money, although, I only have enough to pay rent, and will have nothing left over for the next two weeks...He knows I need it. I will not ask. He can be the child he wants to be, and I will be the adult that I want to be.
I think about how he is pretty much mooching off of his mother, the way he mooched off of me...and it makes me want to finish school even more. I want to take care of my parents - I want to be in the position to give them anything they need if one of them gets ill, or if I just want to send them on a cruise, or I want to be the one that buys them dinner every time we go out. My parents have helped me so much over the years, and they still help me. I will never starve or be thrown out on the streets, because they will always be there. I want to be there for them. From here on out...I want to be there for them. Anyway, that is why I want to finish school. That keeps me going. The thought that my parents are going to get old, and they are going to need me, and I am going to be there...only to give - never to take.
Happy Memorial Day!
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Wow. I definitely think you've got your noggin on straight. You sound empowered and focused on the right things.
But, for what it's worth, I like it better when you blog about porn and stuff.
Well, I am actually thinking about writing an erotica novella using some of my fantasies, but I am not sure if the world is ready for that.
Are too
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