Wasting Time

I am trying to waste time before I go crazy with wanting to get out of here! I just can not enter one more update! The weekend is calling me.

Now, I am trying to decide if I really want my husband to come over this weekend. We actually had sex last weekend. Before that, it was sometime in January. I am trying to decide if I want to let him come over and have sex with me again this weekend, because I kind of want it now that I have had a little taste. That is how I function. If I am not expected to have sex, or if I go without it for a pretty long time, I can keep going on forever without it. So, the more I have it, the more I want it. I don't know if that is the same with every woman, or if it is just me. If you can keep me turned on in some type of sexual way every single day...our sex life would be extraordinary, but if you neglect me for a week, and then expect me to be turned on when you crawl in the bed with me at night...you MUST be joking.

I don't know why I even started writing about that. To those who don't know, I am a naturally submissive woman...and this includes the bedroom. Keep me turned on, and I am yours whenever...Ignore the fact that I am a sexual being, and I turn to stone. Not purposely, mind you...I just lose interest.

So, hence my dilemma - do I let him have sex with me again this weekend? Or do I simply turn it back off, and decline... I don't know. I don't want to open the flood gates for fear of not being able to turn it off for a while.

But, in reality, he doesnt keep me turned on on a daily basis, so we might not even have a dilemma. That is right! Who am I kidding? Either way, it doesnt matter... It's just wam bam thank you mam - and then nothing til next time.

I'm rambling...must go home.